Meat

"Oh but you don't eat meat! Mind if I do?"

"Please go ahead. I could try some too."

"You don't have to."

"Haha! I don't really mind. I've cheated on my religion long ago."

"Well. Not with me." 

The Silver Earring

She carefully made up her eyes and straightened her sundress. Yes, the little green flowers on the off white top matched her eye shadow.

Perfect, she thought. Reed will probably like it.

She picked up the pair of silver earrings and put them on. She smiled at the memory it brought back to her.

She'd been wearing the same pair of earrings, when he'd held her close previously.

The little green flowers also matched the wreath.

The Race

The girl walked confidently up the podium

Knowing nobody would vote for her

She knew how strong an emotion jealousy was..

She stood there humbly, knowing she was better

The voices trying harder and harder

Telling her to drop from the Race

Nobody was going to vote for her.

She walked there anyway, giving them 

The pleasure of a willing defeat

This paltry nugget wasn't Her Race anyway.

Discouragement from family was harder

To love them despite the wounds

To prance without the chains weighing down

Love came then, and was lost at crossroads

Of hopeful achievement and disgruntled archaic expectations

Easy to be hurt, harder to not be resenting or vengeful.

First Principles. Being herself in all her glory.

Sprinting the Race they can't even see.

Over

I am here

And mentally there

Half a world away

Eternally cursed 

Shamefully nursing 

A home

So far away

A coin toss each time

Detoxifying

Discovering 

Where was that bit of me? 

The one I gave you? 

Where's that whole of me? 

The one that you kept? 

Where's that nothing of you? 

The one I crushed behind? 

I am both confused and not

I am both moving on and not

I both want you and don't

I am both yours and not

You made me yours and not

You gave me yourself and not

I'm forgetting you

While holding on to you

A frozen fire remains.. 

A tinder in the Arctic.. 

Forever on the edge

Forever stuck

Between

In the land of nowhere 

In the land of everything

Closing fences

Of an infinite love

Choosing thorns

In a garden of roses

This temporary permanence

And these endless limits

Broken, unbroken dreams

Shaken, unshaken lives

Here you are baby

And there I am

Blinded stares and silent screams

Let it be over

Forever and never