Denial

I can't contain
Subside or hide
I can't refuse to
acknowledge

I was many things
All but what
You wanted

Sprawled in a town
Sleeping in another
Shopping in third
Trapped enroute fourth
Sulking in fifth
Fighting in sixth

You know how
The list goes on

Sheepish, hawkish

Loving, scary

Resolute, insecure

A story over

A decade

Half a world

Now ended

Dried up tears

Remain

And a tsunami dies

In my throat 

Pack it

Lock it 

Run away

Grieve 

Embrace

Leave..